okay, so colorado. it was fantastic. the cliff dwellings were kind of interesting. christmas morning i got a sugar-free red bull&my sister got a regular one. she said "are you on a diet? cause i will ruin it." i laughed&said i'd never go on a diet, that i liked the taste better. other things we did..hm...manicures&pedicures. neon pink toenails&fingernails. even the boys had mani/pedi time. we went on the cave of the winds tour. i pulled my phone out&laughed at myself for thinking i'd have cell service that far underground. listening to michael jackson in the mall made me miss his crazy existence. we went on the old cog railroad tour that goes up to pikes peak but we only went partway up on account of all the snow. then we got in our cars&couldn't drive down the hill without sliding off the side. so a guy in his little truck plowed the road for us. sweet citizens. my brother-in-law's tahoe hates the cold, so the speedometer was either at 100 or 0 most of the time.
lots of fat jokes were made. i know they didn't mean them, but they still upset me for some reason. on new years eve i had 7 drinks at 3.2% alcohol which = a drunk zette. we went to lots of restaraunts. i got salads almost every time, claimed it was the easiest thing to clean out of my braces. mostly got away with it. on night at a steak place though the whole table made fat jokes so i purged in the bathroom. i purged once outside, it was nasty, as purging outdoors always is. we southerners shivered a little when the weather said "sunny, feels like -7". sissies.
it was snowing the day i flew home so it was a pretty bumpy plane ride. i sat in the middle of a 3-seat row next to a creepy guy. a fat woman walked up&indicated that she had the window seat. we both moved into the aisle so she could sit down. i gave the creepy guy a wide-eyed look&he understood, "will she fit?", so he seemed less creepy. i touched down at the airport&it was friggin snowing in my hometown. so i brought colorado home with me. the snow was mostly melted when i got up, but i thought it was pretty anyway. don't make fun of my sleepy photography skillz.
this is getting long. apologies, ladies. i'll post pictures of myself soon, since i got tons of new clothes. but i gained 4lbs on the trip&i'd like to make sure i'm rid of them first. i'm sure you understand. i really did miss all of you&if i wasn't feeling sick i would catch up on all your blogs tonight. also, to noface, holy shit, you read my whole blog? kudos to you. lots of mindless posts you got through. anyway, on to the good stuff.
thinspo:
or:
skinny vs. average. easy choice, hard to maintain. stay strong today, lovelies.
xoxo
zette
p.s. it's windy. the wind creeps me out big time. fingers crossed for no nightmares tonight.
The wind creeps me out too. :\
ReplyDeleteGlad to hear your trip was awesome :]
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ReplyDeletewelcome back and happy new year zette!!
ReplyDeleteso it looks like you had a great time :)
Ahh, such a lovely thinspo <3
ReplyDeleteI'm glad you had a great trip, baring the "fat jokes." They always used to get to me too even though i know they were all in jest.
Good luck with losing the 4lbs you gained, and stay super stong hun! xx
colorado sound lovely! im glad you had an enjoyable time.
ReplyDeleteand cant wait to see pictures of you!!
stay lovely. <3
I am so glad you are back, darling!
ReplyDeleteDon't worry about the pounds, you'll loose them again! I know that and you know it, too, right.
Oh, I am excited for the pictures!
Love,
Merely
Haha! I find it kind of funny that you (almost) got away with saying salad was the easiest thing to clean out of your braces. Because, if I remember correctly from my 5 years in braces, salad was one of the HARDEST things to get out of my braces.
ReplyDeleteYou're baaaaaaaack :)
ReplyDeleteI'm glad you had fun!
Hey, absolutely looove your blog! I'd be honored if you came by to look at mine... It's brand new but hey:)
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Thanks :)
Zette,
ReplyDeleteI'm not even going to waste my time with the 'your words meant everything to me' schlock. We both know how fabulous you are :)
I'm leaving and I just want you to know that throughout these passed few months(all nine or ten of them) you have saved me. Maybe not directly but I know that if I didn't have you and your sarcastic humor as well as your spirit to pull me through I probably wouldn't have made it. I hope you get everything out of life that you want to. I hope you get the body you want. But most of all I hope you get the chance to live, REALLY live. I wish you nothing but happiness and hope that you can look in the mirror and see what you aren't able to yet. Every Ana/ Mia/ EDNOS sufferer/extreme dieter deserves that, but you most of all. <3 Be you and don't let this shittty fucked up world take that away. Stay strong don't let yourself break you.