10:21am

i wake up around 8. i stare at the ceiling&tell myself today will be fine. an hour later, i roll out of bed to wash my face, brush my teeth, &pour a glass of orange juice. my stomach hurts so i let myself have a spoonful of yogurt, too, even though that is not in the plan. i grab a straw for my juice&sit indian style in front of the computer. i read all the blogs posted while i was sleeping&comment if i have something to say. i go to my dashboard&open a new post. i type what is on my mind, then i find pictures of girls who are thinner than i am. then i sign out&do my morning crunches. the rest of the day is a blur. i might hang out with a friend, i might not. i might go running, it might be too hot. i might wear the dark shorts&i might wear the light ones. i might see my thighs in the mirror&hide them in jeans instead. my life is back to the monotony i appreciate. the boring habits i so carefully formed&control. my life is fine. despite my injured kitten, my drunk sister, my dead nephew, my backstabbing friend, my irrelevant father, my apathetic mother, &my huge thighs, i'm going to be okay.

thinspo:

or:

some people are small&some people are not. luckily for the people who are not, this problem has a solution. i will be small. i can't make myself shorter but i can make my tall frame more bearable. stay strong, lovelies.

xoxo

zette

p.s. have i mentioned how happy i am to be back? cause i am. i missed you girls tremendously.