i've got to keep my ass out of bed after running. i tend to get up at 5:20am, stretch, run&get back home by 6:30am, then go back to bed&sleep. it makes me feel lazy. also, ran across this quote today&i like it quite a bit.
"I have enough things on my plate today so I don't have to worry about food not being on it." - Thinspodiary i'll just have to keep myself busy enough that my stomach growling is drowned out. anyway, i'm looking at places around town to work at because tomorrow morning my older sister is taking me to grab applications at a few places. i really don't want to. at all. i want to be lazy&alone. but i should grow up. so i will.
intake yesterday was 95 until my mother&i went to target to get cotton balls&shampoo. then afterward she was 'starving' (the quotation marks because she weighs about 250lbs) so we went to a mexican restaurant. i got spinach quesadillas. took my time nibbling, &even put two of the pieces in the napkin in my lap. that way when i got up, i could slip it into my hoodie pocket to trash in the bathroom before i purged.
the best things ever to keep in your purse are wisps. the little on-the-go toothbrushes. a brush on one side with something minty in the middle, &a pick on the other side which is good for braces. good for after eating&great for after purging. i suggest you go get some. i buy them at dollar tree. i'm rambling again. oops.
thinspo:
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she's so tall&thin in tan. the other girl is so...blah. looks like her date didn't even dress up for her, really. stay strong today, lovelies.
xoxo
zette
p.s. i'm a hypocrite for putting that as my last p.s., i'm disappointed in myself. my new red flats have dark red blotches on the inside. i wouldn't have started cutting if i'd known it would still be this addicting 5 years later. on a more cheery note, i took photos of surprise doing what she does best. it was cold, thus the shirt. but she's the best running buddy i could ask for.
I think getting up at 5:20 am automatically rules out laziness.
ReplyDeleteI work out at 7 pm.
I set my alarm every morning for 6:45 am, shut it off, and sleep until 7:45, the last possible minute before having to drag N out of bed and off to school.
You = Awesome
Me = Lazy shit
Running at all just means you're seriously not lazy. Who cares if you go back to sleep? It's tiring. You were so sneaky at that restaurant. Sneaky in a good way. A great way actually. I wish I could pull off something like that. Sorry to hear about the cutting. I still haven't found out how to stop. It really is a type of addiction. Oh, and Surprise looks so cute in that pic! I hope you're doing well.
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oh my goodness! for getting up at 520 you are definitly not lazy! just wondering, when do you go to sleep?
ReplyDeletestay lovely. <3
Yay for being quoted :P
ReplyDeleteGood luck with finding a job, hope you find something fun, and your dog is adorable!
Your dog is so cute! And, yeah, I barely exercise at all, so don't you dare go around calling yourself lazy when you get up at 5:20 AM to go running! I wish I was that disciplined. Cutting is definitely addictive. I wish I never started, but it doesn't mean I can't stop. It's not easy, but I'm trying the best I can. I hope you can too. Hang in there <3
ReplyDeleteYou are awesome. I hate getting up before 6 let alone to work out.
ReplyDeleteI give you so much credit for running in the morning. I get up early too, but never to workout! (Maybe I should change that...?) You're awesome.
ReplyDeleteYour dog is adorable; I can't get over it.
cutest dog ever.
ReplyDeleteand well done for not gobbling down that mexican! x
Oh girl, you should not think you're lazy, I mean, you wouldn't call someone who gets out of bed before six to go running a lazy person, right.
ReplyDeleteI really wish you'd stop cutting, but this is probably very hard, I might have no idea. I hope you can do it, though.
Stay strong, darling! Sending you all my love,
Merely
The captions you write on your pictures are hilarious!
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