11:57am

my sister&my niece just left. time for school. had soup&crackers for breakfast. a rice cake for lunch. black coffee now with 25cals of sugar. i don't usually add sugar. but i did today. i slept pretty well last night. only woke up once. called my friend a few times, decided i should quit being annoying, she called me back, we talked, i fell asleep again. but i woke up grumpy. i'm filling out applications online. i chose to save&quit, but it submitted it. so it skipped a lot of things. like the hours i'm available&my education. i fucking hate online applications. i'll return emails tomorrow. i'm bitchy today.

while i'm bitchy anyway though, let's clear something up. i hate my face. i hate it because i have acne, though not much, plus clean&clear is helping that a lot. i have braces for another year. i sometimes have to wear my glasses. my wide eyes, full eyebrows, fat lips, big nose, &native american cheekbones (which i get from my grandmother) are all too big for my small head. that is why i don't take compliments seriously. don't get all pissy when i ignore comments like "you have amazing eyes" or "i love your angelina jolie lips" or "i wish i had high cheekbones like that". i'm not trying to be rude. i just don't share those opinions. i hate my body. a certain friend of mine tells me constantly that i'm tiny, emphasized by fitting her hands around my waist or poking my 'little' legs. they're not little. please stop poking the fat. get your hands off my torso, i don't like to be touched. don't grab my flabby arms. don't put your fingers between my giant ribs when you hug me&then tell me i'm bony. i don't appreciate it. i have days when i won't let anyone touch me. people get so offended. how dare i refuse to hug you, i guess. really? go fuck yourself. dammit, i told you i'm grumpy today. but i'm making the thinspo bigger because i love today's photos.

thinspo:

or:

first, the skinny is in the middle. second, white jeans are scary. you have to be small to look good in them. if you're not, you have to wear a long shirt to look okay in them. otherwise you look ginormosaurus. isn't that a great word? stay strong today, lovelies.

xoxo

zette

p.s. i can't find my hula hoop. the world is coming to an end. &if you're going to get one, try it out in the store. of course you'll look silly. but it's worth it if you like them.