11:39am

good morning, kiddies. well, morning for me. i had half a cliff bar&some water for breakfast. 120 calories. maybe going to my brother's for algebra later. if not, skating to my sister's to swim with my niece. i miss my skateboard. it's sitting there in my closet. i haven't gone skating since i fell on my shoulder&chickened out. plus skating is for boys, or so i was told a thousand times. so....last night was fun. went with my family to a fireworks thing. there was a tallish water slide my niece wanted to go on. she's 4years old. but when it was her turn she got scared so i took off my shoes&gave my phone to my sister&went with her. my shorts were heavy&falling off the rest of the night. when the sun went down&the fireworks started it was great...except it was breezy. being pelted with fireworks debris made my legs itchy. but it was fun anyways. wore me out completely. or i thought it did. then i came home&energy came from nowhere. so i was up until 3 writing lyrics&playing piano. the little artist in me woke up. (okay i really didn't mean that to sound so creepy..)

19 days to lose weight before my sister gets here. although the place i eat is the same place i do all my exercises, they seem completely different. when i eat i turn everything off&usually sit on the floor. sometimes i get grossed out hearing myself chew&only get through half a meal. when i work out i have a tv show on or some loud music, like ke$ha or lady gaga. oops. i'm kind of all over the place today. sorry about that. my mind wanders.

thinspo:

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again, i made it huge so you guys can compare as heartlessly as i did. i wish i could be shorter. i feel as if even when i reach my goal weight&pass it, i'll always always always be a giant. stay strong, lovelies.

xoxo

zette

p.s. skittles: puke the rainbow. for real. i opened a bag of skittles the other day&left them in my room. a big bag, mind you. i gave in&had a few&then purged. it was very colorful. my throat burns.