10:29pm

good god. brother-in-law picked me up early to babysit, so i was at their house for about 4 1/2 hours.

then of course they had to make dinner before they could take me home. luckily, it takes me forever to brush my teeth (braces) &i have to brush brush brush after i eat anything. so i had plenty of time to get the food out of me before it could screw anything up.

still frustrating but whatever. maybe they won't ask me to babysit again. i don't like babysitting. i don't mind hanging out with them, but having two cute little peoples lives in my hands is a little more responsibility than i like. i'm never having children. (if i'm ever prego, remind me to undo it)

anyways, didn't go above 400 calories today, so still on track with abc. tomorrow is 100 cals, which might be hard to hide.but if i get up early&leave stuff out in the kitchen, i should be able to get away with a light lunch, &then i've got things to do in the evening so i can crash early.

almost threw up from drinking so much water today. almost, but i didn't. yay for tic tacs.

well that was my day. i'm sure it's extremely exciting compared to yours. oh, my nosy friend found my blog&told a certain dramatic friend about it. so i might be in trouble. but i might be able to talk myself out of trouble. fingers crossed.

stay strong, pretties.

xoxo

zette

3:53pm

hi kids. so today i had to eat a little to keep my mom&sister pleased. i purged after lunch, &other than that i've been moving constantly. i painted my nails&did jumping jacks until they dried. i've been doing pushups &crunches &lunges &plies &squats while i watched the nightmare before christmas movie. now i'm rocking out to paramore. dance, dance, dancing. also, drinking tons of water to keep my stomach from growling.

babysitting my niece&nephew tonight. i'll just tell them i ate before i got there, i always keep plenty of mints in my bag so i should be fine. damn, this is easier than i thought it would be. if only i lived alone.....except i'd go crazy.

anyhow, stay strong. &feel free to email me or whatever if you need any encouragement. &thanks for all the support, you guys are the best.

thinspo time:

or:

eww. nevernevernever.

xoxo

zette

8:50pm

so tired. had to eat a bit to get my mom&sister off my back. but thanks to purging, it didn't matter too much.

besides being worn out, i feel pretty good. day 3 of abc was fine. day 4 is 400 but i won't need that many.

stay strong, darlings.

thinspo for your dreams:

or:

no way. think pretty. think thin.

xoxo

zette

11:29pm

bedtime. day 2 was just dandy. day 3 tomorrow...300. i can do it. 

i'm kind of surprised that it's been so easy. yikes.

thanks again for all the emails&comments. all my love to you.

xoxo

zette

10:20am

good morning, pretties. day 2 of abc. i feel great. i stocked up on mints&i carry a jug of water with me wherever i go. oh, but i feel sick sometimes when i chug water on an empty stomach. anybody else?

not that i expect it to be comfortable. just saying.

after this, just 48 more days&this will be normal to me again. &hopefully it'll put me a little closer to my goal weight. kind of wishing i were taller. i guess i should be happy with 5'8" though. it's just that i hate when short people announce their numbers&they're so much smaller than mine will be anytime soon.

whatevz. 115lbs, here i come.

thanks for the comments&emails&all my new buddies on msn. your support means alot.

my mom is yelling at me, so i guess i should go for now. i'll prolly post later, though. stay strong, lovelies.

oh yeah&some thinspo:

or:

xoxo

zette

6:51pm

fuckkk. my stomach hurts like hell&i've had a headache most of the day. but it'll be worth it. &it'll get easier again.


day 1 of abc is almost over. got through it with 350 calories. day 2 is the same, 500 or less cals. shooting for less. thin thin thin.


for those of you who have emailed me, thanks for the support. it means alot. 



xoxo
zette

9:42am

good morning, abc. we'll be friends for 50 days. i already put all the numbers in the calendar on my phone, so keeping track will be easy as i'll be reminded every morning.

is anyone else doing abc? it helps alot to have support. lemme know, kids.

also, from this day forward i'm going to get better at hiding my habits, so a couple people will shut up about it. this means controlling my temper when people try to make me eat. &getting rid of food before it touches my lips, instead of spitting it out or purging. man, surprise is gonne get fat. (surprise is my dog's name.)

so, day 1. 500 or less. no plan, just counting. prolly not going to need all 500. &if anybody else is doing abc, pretty please email me or hit me up on msn, we can even text if you want to. 

thinspo to kick off 2010: 

or:

xoxo

zette