6:17pm

6 inches of snow today. the weather is so random here sometimes. went sledding down a big hill behind walmart. it was awesome. i'm officially frozen.

my mom is making chili so i'll prolly eat that with my sister later, but besides that all i've had today is yogurt. &tons of water, as always.

i need to catch up on your blogs. shit i have to finish this essay first. you guys were supposed to remind me. i guess i'll let that slide just this once.

stay strong, lovelies.

xoxo

zette

5:38pm

ohboy. my sister eats so much! why can't i eat that much&be as small as she is? i suppose we are different people, no matter how much our faces look alike.

i'm supposed to finish that essay today. or tomorrow. i should prolly do it today. i'm dead if i don't have it perfect by friday morning. yikes.

i've decided that i officially love my economics class&hate the homework. my english class is getting better. they keep me busy&;that's a very good thing.

alsooo, i volunteered to babysit my niece&nephew this weekend so b&c can go do something valentiney. um, &a guy i used to hang out with sent me the most ridiculous valentines card ever. it's all sparkly&shit. then on the inside he wrote a looong note about me. silly boys. gotta love them.

i'lldatewheni'mskinny.

i owe you guys some thinspo:

or:

friends don't let friends stay fat.

stay strong, lovelies.

xoxo

zette

4:00pm

i know i'm supposed to babysit but i don't remember what time. either 4 or 5 &my sister won't answer her phone. so, crappuccino. oh well.

got a new ana buddy. she's lovely. i can always use a couple more though. yeah, that's a hint. my email is in the last post if you're interested.

also forgot to write a 2 page essay. i'll do it when i get home tonight. shouldn't be hard, it's not actually due until friday, we just have to have 2 pages for mr. b to skim over tomorrow.

in other news, a certain somebody asked me out....again. i'll date when i'm skinny. err, ready**. hah.

i'm pretty positive i act my age so why do so many of you think i'm 20something? you guys crack me up.

so where am i at right now? i lost 8 pounds. then i gained 3. then i lost 4. now i'm stuck. stuckstuckstuck=fuckfuckfucked. gahh, frustrating as hell.

whatevz. you guys are great&i'm glad i have all of you. stay strong, think thin, etc. you can be whatever you want to be. hang in there, lovelies. you're not alone.

xoxo

zette

10:13pm

82 on my economics test. fuckkk. not even remotely close to being good enough.

i really need an ana buddy. somebody said they couldn't email me from my profile so i'll put one of my 5 email addresses at the bottom of the post. i'm not stupid, nothing is linked to this address i used it to vote for my friend's band. you can email me your number so we can text, or just email. whatever floats your boat.

thinspo for your dreams&mine:

  

or:

tan fat looks better than pale fat but it still looks disgusting.

let's make them all jealous. stay strong, lovelies.

&email me. iliveparadigm@yahoo.com

xoxo

zette

9:22am

good morning, kids. i've decided that i need a scale. since it would be an odd birthday gift, i'll prolly use my birthday money to get it instead. kapeesh? cool. also, 43 followers? damn. well hello to you all. hah i love it.

okay so since my computer got fixed it's like having a new one. i haven't even downloaded itunes yet. i'll add it to my to-do list for today:

run 3 miles

download itunes

study for&do economics test.

that's all i have to get done. oh&then i'll go to church tonight. i'm not sure the leaders appreciate me there. i do cuss alot. &D didn't get into drugs until we started hanging out. &besides, church is for christians&that i definitely am not. so why do i go? cause my buddies will be there&it's better than staying at home with my sister who calls me fat (jakingly) a gazillion times a day. that's getting old.

ugh. whatthefuckever. not eating today. i don't want to. some days i do, this is not one of those days.

i need thinspo. do you?

or:

 

see? nicole richie got a fat friend. only problem is, i'm the fat friend right now. shit.

 well, think thin today. good luck to you all, lovelies.

xoxo

zette

6:07pm

home alone. i love it. just me&my guitar&a whole lot of water. i'm hoping the rain will stop soon so i can skate. my board was literally dusty. hah.

anyways, thinspo:

 

or:

 

hmm...the only one not wearing leggings is the only one who could make them look good.

xoxo

zette

1:28pm

somebody told me to title my blogs something besides the time. i don't want to. kapeesh?

sorry i disappeared. my computer went kaput on me&it just got fixed. mostly. gotta copy some stuff. for now i just get on at the library.

anyhow, gained weight again cause i've been eating like a normal person lately. hoping to fix that soon but it'll be difficult as i'm getting zero alone time. boo for having to eat.

except tuesday&wednesday&today. my buddy overdosed monday&died the next day. i've been kinda messed up about it. we weren't super close but it's still scary, you know?

been trying not to cut. it's not working well. asj;klkjdfpkf'dsjkuhcfss. frustrated.

enough venting. thanks for all the support&i have been getting the emails, i'll reply asap.stay strong, lovelies.

xoxo

zette