binge of the day: honeysuckles. no idea how many calories. but they were prolly all burned picking them. lots of water today. i want to keep losing weight. emotional hurricane aside, i'm actually okay. but taking the emotions into account, i'm fucked. my ribs are one big scratchfest from cutting so much. i feel so lost. an annoying feeling. forget about school. school is my last priority. i've already missed 3 days (i only go 3 days a week) &before that i had perfect attendance. awesome. way to go, zette, you're a fucking loser. i need some reverse thinspo. so that's what i'll post. sorry for the bullshit mumblings. hopefully i'll be closer to normalish soon.
xoxo
zette
You are so not a loser! Try to pick up the pieces and keep going. Attendance isn't the most important thing as long as your grades are good. In high school and college I would skip school all the time to do well on really important papers and assignments.
ReplyDeleteCheer up. I liked your reverse thinspo a lot! xoxo.
Sweetie I gotta say school isn't worth anything at all. We work hard get thin work our asses off to be perfect have perfect lives do something great and DIE. When in doubt drop one(not completely obviously but cut yourself some slack). This is going to sound utterly contradicting but don't spend your life trying to be someone elses version of perfect. Do what you want for you. Seriously sit down and think about it and while your at it draw yourself a bubble bath get a great book and a mani pedi and relax. Unwind and give yourself a break with all that you've been going through you could use relaxation(I'm not saying that you should cut back from anything or do anything you don't want to but honey if you need a nap take a nap!). You aren't a loser and even though your lost I know you'll find your way soon darlin!!!!Stay strong <3
ReplyDeleteI wanted to post here all weekend, but alas, my desktop at home won't let me post on blogger.
ReplyDeleteI am sorry your ribs and you have suffered so much. We are ready to listen when you are ready to talk, though none of us can comprehend the emotional roller coaster ride you are on. Stay strong, stay cool, stay level.
Love the reverse thinspo, by the way. Your pictures always make me smile.
.. I dont even know what honeysuckles are. And too lazy to google the translation. I love how you say emotional hurricane aside and you’re okay … concentrate on the aside thing. Not the emotions. I am not trying to say stop feeling but concentrate on the good things. You’re not a loser … go back to school and be perfect again. That’s what it’s all about, isn’t it? :) Just try to be perfect.
ReplyDeleteI love you :) We all do. Thanks for the lovely thinspo again!
I'm sooo sorry I haven't been a very loyal ana texting buddy lately. I got a new phone and lost all my contacts and just finally got the guts to get on blogger again. So,I'm sorry. But I do still have the same number so you can text it and just let me know it's you. Also,I'm sorry to hear you're going through a rough time right now. Stay strong. We all love you. You're beautiful.
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We haven't heard from you in about 5 days. Officially worried. Just drop a one line post and let us know you're okay.
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