August 30, 2010

10:32am

fucking failure yesterday. had some stuff to get done, sorry i didn't post. anyway, my food journal sort of goes..short entry, short entry, short entry with lots of cussing, short entry, then a massive entry. yesterday. 1100 calories. i'm a dumbass. i only did about half my workouts during the day but i spent an hour&a half on them last night before i passed out. 1100 calories is not going to make me skinny. i have to be skinny. i need to see more bones. hips, collarbones, ribs, &spine are not enough for me. my friend is going to get here&wonder if i actually have issues with food. she's going to stop worrying. she's going to look at me&stop telling me i'm skinny. fuck.

thinspo:
or:
"what am i wearing to prom? oh, i thought i'd get the red dress. you know, the strapless mermaid one? &since i have no self control, i'll add 30lbs of fat as an accessory." stay strong today, lovelies. you can control yourselves. let's show off our pretty bones.

xoxo
zette
p.s. when i'm skinny i'll start skateboarding again. i miss my boys.

10 comments:

  1. Hi i'm new here (: so as you can see my name is Sinny and i hope that i'm welcome here. and i do love the picture that you always post the last that shows the opposite of thinspo <3
    i do hope that you'll guide me since im still very uneducated about these things.
    =)
    be strong!

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  2. you skateboard?
    i always wanted to be able to do that.

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  3. :o you skateboard? thats so awesome !
    and things'll improve, its another day lovely =)

    xoxo

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  4. Aw, don't worry, you'll do better. You'll be skinny enough to make her worry. Maybe you won't feel it, but you'll be perfect.

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  5. Isn't it weird that half the appeal and measurement of success is how much people worry?

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  6. don't worry, theres always tomorrow! and your blog/the thinspo you post seriously makes my day. i love the way you write!
    xoxoxo

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  7. ahhhh skateboarding! then you'd be a skater chic ;)

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  8. Haha, love the comparison, as usual.
    Also, skateboarding is definantely awesome! Impressive. <3

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  9. I like how the chick in the blue dress seems to like taking pics with faties. I'm a bitch, but she's got a good strategy there.

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  10. it's a blonde again... hmmm lol
    skateboarding??!! you are crazy cool!

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