10:44am

man, i am waking up super late these days. insomnia please go away. not really insomnia. just scared-shitless-of-nightmares-ia. either way, i'm wasting time. even when i get up at 5:30 to run, i come back&sleep until 10 or so. luckily, i'll be doing all my schooling at home, i think, so i won't have to worry about getting up early come fall. i don't have much to say, so i think i'll answer a few questions i keep getting.

OMG is that You?

i will never ever ever post myself as thinspo. ever. i'm not where i want to be, so why would i want you to be where i am? the only picture of me is the one beside my name. if i find a picture of myself beside someone who is where i want to be, however, that might one day be the reverse thinspo.

What do you weigh now?

i weigh more than 115. does that satisfy you for now?

What do you write in your food diary?

the date, my weight, then everything i ate, &in a column next to it, all the exercises i did. &yes, it does help. i do lose it from time to time though, when i hide it too well.

Do you still get your period?

yes, i still get it. sometimes it's irregular but still there. boo.

What size bra do you wear?

my newest one fits perfectly&it's a 34B.

Where do you lose the most weight? Or do you lose it evenly?

i lose weight around my torso first. so my ribs stick out in front&in back but my leg are huge (at least i think so). i'm terribly disproportionate at the moment. &i have a long torso with short legs so i look very odd. thus the baggy clothes.

What are your measurements?

i haven't measured myself much. but i know my waist is 26".

How many miles do you run?

i'm not sure how far i usually run. i tend to just run until i can't run anymore. then i sit down until i feel better. then i run again. &so on&so forth until i don't think i have anything in me to run again. then i do it again the next day.

Does your hair ever fall out?

no, not exactly. well...i lose alot of hair when i brush it but it doesn't seem to be getting thinner. does that answer your question?

how often do you purge?

more often than i should. a couple times a week. lately i've been doing so more often though, &when i do, i bleed a little. i should prolly take it easy in that area....

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god. i swear i don't have anything against blondes. but this is a good opportunity to point out purses. only small girls can carry small purses. if you're overweight&you carry a tiny bag, it'll just make you look bigger. comparisons, comparisons. i love them. i'm off to do my morning crunches&cook an egg. stay strong today, lovelies.

xoxo

zette