10:34am

good morning, kiddies. i'm feeling much better. sore all over&i deserve it. i kinda hate&i kinda like how every time i'm down you guys throw my advice back in my face. i'm always telling you guys not to beat yourself up for binges but what did i do? work out every chance i got. ended up being about 5 hours throughout the day. yeah, i slept well. today i've gotta pack some stuff up to go to b&c's house. they're at a camp thing so i'll be over there to keep their house company&feed their dog. beth was listing the things in the fridge&freezer&pantry&said i could have anything i want. um...i think i'll bring my own food. fruit&veggies&eggs. what was my point....oh well for starters i lost a pound instead of gaining. damn. didn't see that coming.

&i won't be blogging this weekend cause i only blog on my computer. so...you can email me though. what else....oh, wedding tonight. took me forever yesterday to pick out what to wear. finally settled on a grey sweater dress with purple heels&a black blazer. loose enough to hide my fat but not so loose that i look like a trash bag. i'm stoked about staying at their house though. i love it. &the pool is cool so i'll go swimming, maybe burn some extra calories cause of the temperature. someone told me the other day "zette you're going to kill yourself with this goddamn diet." it took everything in me to not say "so?". sometimes i wonder how much i'm willing to sacrifice to be thin. then i remember: everything.

thinspo:

or:

even if all you could see were the faces, you'd be able to tell. fat girls have fat everythings. well except hair. fat girls usually have lovely hair. why? cause they can put lots of makeup on that face but no bronzer can hide multiple chins. stay strong, lovelies.

xoxo

zette

p.s. thanks for all your support yesterday. you ladies are the greatest. kelly thanks for saying they'd kick me out. lovelybones i highly doubt they'd ;et you in but i know it can feel like it. blah.

p.s.s. i love this thinspo cause it's still real girl but it just looks so lovely.