okay..so.....last night i had ice cream...&soup....&i went over 600. so i purged. but even when i purge the most i ever subtract in my food journal is 50. i don't want to cheat. i tend to round up when i eat something with no specific calories. like a teaspoon of ice cream that is prolly ten i'll call twenty, etc. went running this morning&if i'd eaten breakfast it would be on the grass at the park. i want to run but i can't&it's so frustrating. kinda got mad at myself for not being able to handle it so i came home&did 200 crunches 500 jumping jacks. gonna keep today around 300cals. just cause i can. i feel huge. &i look huge. that means i'm huge, right??
thinspo:
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i love this. the girl in yellow is lovely, though i'd dress her differently. but the girl in athletic shorts is a ginormosaurus. rawr. if you ever see her, run. she looks like she might eat people. stay strong today, lovelies.
xoxo
zette
p.s. i feel like i'm running out of nice things to say. i'm not a nice person&it's hard to say something positive to all of you. i do mean what i say. just takes me five minutes to think of it.
p.s.s. i'll be gone all day so i'll answer all the emails tonight. i didn't forget.
ai ai ai... I'm surprised the skinny girl hasn't been eaten.
ReplyDelete"Aren't you a little big for a sidewalk? Good God, hide the wicker furniture!
China, sorry about the tremors, but this lady needs her mail!"
Kakoom kakoom kakoom pshhhhhhh!
big girl go boom =/
sometimes i can't comment at all.
ReplyDeletenothing nice to say sometimes.
its just how it goes.
don't worry about it lovely.
please, Im not nice either. I try but normally just say nothing. ehh. easier to push away than pull towards, i always say.
ReplyDeleteyanno, i wish that could always work with food....
Haha yes i'm a christian lol
ReplyDeleteAre you?
ANd I doubt you're huge. I mean I KNOW you aren't lol :)
Hope you feel better!!
You'll be back to your running in no time :)
Lilah
don't over push your self, you should just slowly do harder and harder work outs then you do better. hope every thing goes well. stay strong! lots of love S xoxo
ReplyDeletep.s i love all your comments!
Don't let your mind trick you, honey. Think rationally, maybe you'll realize that you may seem huge because you feel so bad about all the things you ate. Try to see trough all of it.
ReplyDeleteWish you all the best,
Merely
I'm so incredibly jealous of people who are thin AND gorgeous. Fucking superhero. I want to post pictures of myself, and I think it would be perfect for you to comment on.. and not make up anything nice to say :) I want harsh, truthful. It would give you an escape from the usual :) haha.
ReplyDeleteThat girl on the bottom? Yeah, her calves make me think of elephants. Or tree trunks. Or just anything really, really unattractive and huge.
" i feel huge. &i look huge. that means i'm huge, right?? ". Yeah, wrong. It most likely means you're smaller than most people but can't see it when you look in the mirror. Wish you could, but I understand. I hope you find satisfaction in your goal weight lovely.
Never apologize for being yourself. Even if you aren't a nice person. :]
ReplyDeleteI try to comment, but so many times there's just nothing I really want to say.
It's perfectly understandable.
<3
you won't agree, but i do think you're pretty.
ReplyDeleteyou're also funny, & i think that gives you a license to not have to be nice.
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i usually round up too if i don't know exactly how many calories are in something. it's just nice to think "i ate 300 calories today, but actually a little less," over "i ate 300 calories and more."
ReplyDeleteand holy crap-- one of the fatty's legs is bigger than both of the skinny girl's legs. jeeze.
xoxo
Careful love <3 Don't mean to preach but keep yourself safe o.o Running 'til you retch... nawt fun!
ReplyDeletePersonally I always really like the wee comments you leave on my blog, always really sweet =] Don't feel you have to or anything, though! And yes, btw, I will gladly trade noses with you, I hate mine XD That picture was flatteringly deceptive, it's actually rather lumpy and lop-sided... hate it.
I round up too if I'm not sure. Always. Usually I don't have to, though, because I have an absurdly good memory for numbers so once I've measured and calculated how much is in a portion that's it set in stone.
BTW, I don't know if I've said it before, but you look wonderful in your profile pic. Much love <3