9:57am

started the day doing my favorite exercises 3 times. plus kickbacks, my butt is a lil jiggly since i don't run as much anymore. i need to get new running shoes, my sister stole mine&wears them to work. i'd steal them back, but starbucks is grosssss. old milk on them..don't want them back.

anyhow, 2 eggs for breakfast, avacado sandwich for lunch, (1/2 avacado, 1 slice whole wheat bread, 1/2 tomato), &i'm not sure about dinner. i might just skip it. so..water

made a deal with a certain friend that i'd drop this eating obsession in 9 months. now that i've got her off my back, i just have to keep my mouth shut. it's hard to not talk about food&weight when it's in the front of my mind all the time. anybody else have trouble with that? i have to keep myself from checking calories when i'm with other people.

oh well. venting over. i can do this. i'm already doing it. i'll be thin. i'll be small. i'll be beautiful.

thinspo for your monday:

or you can stick with:

think thin&stay strong, lovelies.

xoxo

zette

9:55am

good morning. 21 degrees so far. lots of windows in my room so it's colddd. i have 5 blankets on my bed (+an electric blanket under the sheet)&i still get cold at night. oh well. it's not usually this cold here, so it should warm up soon. makes me want to go tanning. hah.

anyhow, empty stomach so far.

40 lunges (left&right each)

30 squats

30 plies

40 heel lifts

30 crunches

30 pushups (girl, i can't do guy ones)

&i'll do it over again later. ghetto cause i don't have a gym membership. maybe that's what i should ask for as a birthday gift? hm..it's still over a month away.

should be easy to fast today. my mom will be home as she has no car at the moment, &my sister will be home around 6:30, then i'm chillin with some friends. so my dog&my sister's puppy will eat alot of food for me today. gotta love them.

my buddy saw me at the store&told me i'm getting bony. i'm not but it made me smile anyways. also, my dramatic friend has agreed to restrain herself from posting on my blog. she'll still be reading but there'll be no whining, at least on here. i'm sure she'll call to yell once in a while. for once i'm glad there are miles between us.

wow, am i rambling or what? sorry. stay strong, lovelies.

thinspo for your day:

or:

sure helps me avoid the kitchen.

xoxo

zette

8:54pm

so the weather bites. it's supposed to be a little above freezing tomorrow though. hopefully warm enough to thaw out the hot water heater, having no hot water sucks.

didn't eat much today. &what i did eat i brought right back up. water makes purging so much easier, especially if i take a drink between bites. i've decided this way is easier than restricting as much as i can&letting my stomach shrink. this way is easier to hide, &hiding it is important right now. see, if i didn't care about hiding it i'd lose weight faster, but people would find out&then think i want attention&i hate that. i hate it because once someone thinks you're doing something for attention, it's next to impossible to change their mind, even if they're wrong.

anyhow, still haven't weighed myself&i prolly won't post it on here cause my dramatic friend is still lurking&she'll get mad if i manage to get underweight.

hope you're all doing well&staying warm, wherever you are. stay strong, lovelies.

thinspo for your dreams:

or:

never ever. sleep empty, sleep sweet.

xoxo

zette

7:30pm

sorry for being super lame. i'm good now...i think.

anyhow, mostly fruit&veggies, then my sister&i did a gazillion lunges&squats&push ups&heel lifts&crunches, etc. good times.

this whole having to pee a million times a day is annoying, but better to be full of water than food, right? running out of tic tacs...i see a trip to wal mart in the near future.

anyways, fuck stupid people who worry to much. i want what i want&i'm stubborn enough to keep going.

 thinspo for the lot of you:

or:

still hungry?? i didn't think so

think thin. stay strong. you'll be perfect.

xoxo

zette

10:24am

good morning. i start school on the 19th so i've still got some free time.

no plan right now. prolly just going to have to get fatter until my dramatic friend knocks it off. not happy with her right now.

but no worries, i'll figure it out. i always do. i just can't post it on here when i do, cause i'm pretty sure my dramatic friend is bent on making me a fatass.

whatever. think thin, stay strong, it'll be okay.

xoxo

zette

10:47pm

ok so remember my nosy friend who told my dramatic friend about all this? well my dramatic friend is being a pain in the ass (even though i love her to death&back).

so basically, ana boot camp isn't going to happen. at least not right now. i might have to start a different blog, after i punch my nosy friend in her nosy nose.

so little dramatic friend says i have to have 500 calories tomorrow&no purging.

i'm going to explode. i know it.

how am i supposed to get thin when stupid people think i'm already too thin? if i thought i could get away with ignoring my dramatic friend, i would. but it's not possible. she has people.

fuck my life. fuck all these stupid little people who worry about shit that isn't theirs to worry about.

so in a nutshell, abc is on hold until further notice. i'll keep posting, i'll try to post thinspo&try not to be too whiny.

think thin, lovelies. hah. love lies. i do love lies.

thinspo for your dreams:

 

 

or if you have a dramatic friend like i do, this'll have to do:

xoxo

zette

10:07pm

today was bullshit.

the end.

xoxo

zette