6:46pm

nothing important to say, really. just saying things to say them. if you're busy stop reading now cause this will be a time waster.

i just woke up from an almost 4 hour nap. it was glorious. i had no idea i was that tired. also, it's rainy here. thunderstorms. gotta love them. also, both my pets napped with me. i'm glad my kitten like to sleep under the covers. i think it's the one thing she&surprise have in common. (surprise is my dog, she looks like an alien..or so i'm told).

today has been totally mellow. spent the night last night at my sister's house. woke up to my niece asking me if i was awake. what a sweetie. then we ate cinnamon rolls (she calls them cinnamon roll ups)&chased each other around the house. my sister isn't doing very well. not eating&not saying much. worries me but i know she's strong so....i dunno. i know it's selfish but i wish they had someone else to rely on. someone else who was as close to liberty as i am. just so i wouldn't always have to be the first one they call. i hate being over there. they still haven't taken the crib or changing table apart. this whole mess is fucking lame&i want it to be over. all the fighting&sadness&selfish grief for a baby boy we all loved alot.

sorry, didn't mean to get all serious on you. my braces are killing me. my orthodontist is rough. i have a fair pain tolerance so i don't complain but one day he will get a patient who does complain&he will have to be nice. he's not very friendly. he doesn't talk to me much so i don't talk to him. he brushed my teeth last visit. one of the oddest feelings in my life. i guess he forgets that mouths stop cause he kept jabbing the back of my throat with the toothbrush&it hurt. also when he was placing brackets he would pull my cheek way farther than i thought it could ever go. geez, mister, i know i have a small mouth but could you go easy on me?

so..in other news...absolutely nothing is happening. my mother is at work. no more rain but everything is still dripping. so i'm sitting here home alone congratulating anyone who read this far into my longass post. kudos to you, dear friend.

my eating has been a bit all over. i had that cinnamon roll this morning...no idea how many calories. prolly a million. &i had animal crackers&juice. so let's say i've had a 1,000,000,200 calories today. done for the day.

thinspo:

or:

 umm...once again, a fatass makes an average girl look thin. take your fingers (as many as it takes) &cover up the lard in white. see? the girl left of her has plenty to her. unless you want to move into a neighborhood where only the fat exist, don't let yourself be average. come on, little ladies, we're stronger than that.

xoxo

zette

p.s. there's a bird in my yard that has apparently learned to wolf whistle&will not stop. it makes me smile.