10:26am

went grocery shopping. i got some good stuff, i got some bad stuff. i got plain yogurt, plums, &grapefruit. i got bread&pepperjack cheese&some turkey for sandwiches. sounds bad, but i use one slice of bread without crust, half a piece of cheese, &one slice of turkey. for breakfast i'm having plain yogurt with 9 blackberries in it (yes, always a multiple of 3.) since it's saturday, my mother will be home all day. i'll leave around 6:30 tonight to see some friends. i'm hoping it won't be too hot today. i want to spend some time at the park.

also, last night, i had a cupcake. a fucking cupcake. shitstore cupcake with shiticing. shitshitshit. so what did i do? i didn't purge. instead i announced i was going to bed around 11. then i stayed up until 2am working out. i'm pretty sure i undid my mistake. i'm just glad i had enough energy to keep moving for almost 3 hours. i think i passed out as soon as i hit the bed. no nightmares that i can remember. so i'll call that a successful night.

last night i asked my mother to keep an eye on spinny so she wouldn't jump out the window. she told me she would. i came back&my mother was playing piano. spinny was gone. took me a half hour to find her in the dark outside&when i did, she was behind the creepy old storm shelter in the tangle of bushes/thorns/weeds. a few scratches on my arms but besides that i was just pissed. but when i came in, the whole house smelled like cheap wine so i can guess why she lost my cat again. annoying fatass of a guardian.

thinspo:

or:

they both need help with their hair (as if i have room to talk, i cut mine with kiddie scissors) but the one on the left needs help everywhere. yes you can wear black pants&you can cross your legs to hide your inner thighs. but you can't hide everything. check out those arms. yikes. looky, it's a skinny blonde this time. stay strong today, lovelies.

xoxo

zette

p.s. if you have trouble keeping your calories down, a food journal really does help.