i have braces. apparently i'll have them for another year. my skin is mostly clear but scarred from when it was not. other places are scarred, too, from times i couldn't think. my facial features are too big for my head. my eyes are huge. my lips are fat. my cheekbones scream of my native american genes, far too high. i have to be small. i have a small head&it only makes my curves look bigger. by curves i mean layers of fat&unnecessary muscle clinging to my bones. i feel disgusting.
i cut last night. or this morning. it was 3ish. around 4 i wanted to cut again. instead i got a handful of ice&held it until it melted, loving the cool burn. someone asked me yesterday how my niece&nephew are. i told them my niece is doing great. they asked again about my nephew. i walked away. i miss him so much.
thinspo:
or:
well it's not a blonde. hm...the funny thing is i know for a fact the shorty is a cheerleader. why do they let fat people be cheerleaders? don't know they know that flabby arms don't look cute in uniforms? maybe they need more people for stunts so the skinny girls can be on the top. maybe. stay strong today, lovelies, &thanks for everything.
xoxo
zette
p.s. i feel ugly today. the plan? as many crunches as possible&a whole lot of makeup. paired with hide&seek style clothes. love baggy clothes.
If you still look anything like your picture, you're way pretty, I think =]
ReplyDeleteDon't be so hard on yourself, lovely. You'll reach your goals =]
Am I hallucinating, or has your page become blue..?
ReplyDeleteYou're not ugly. :]
sorry you're feeling ugly, but luckily you aren't actually ugly so it should be a short lived feeling
ReplyDeletei hate days like that. :( its so hard to deal with. stay strong chick, crunches are a great idea
ReplyDeleteI had ugly days :/ It's like... how did I look sooo much better yesterday? haha..
ReplyDeleteAt least you're not actually ugly.... I guess if we remember its all in our head, that can make it better?? hmmm, who knows.
Have an awesome day.
Im thinkin its a baggy clothes day as well :D
baggy clothes are wonderful! and hunny the last time i checked, bigger eyes, fuller lips and high cheekbones is gorgeous! just think of how many people get plastic surgery to GET those features, and yours are natural.
ReplyDeleteyour beautiful. :)
You're beautiful,more beautiful than me. ^^ I hope you feel better about yourself. High cheekbones are amazingg.
ReplyDeleteFor what I´ve seen in your pic you are beautiful =) I know you don´t agree, but i wanted to tell you.
ReplyDeleteI hope you don´t take this the wrong way but i see you post pics og chubby girls and say pretty mean thing about them. One thing is wanting to be thin with every part of you and posting thinspo, but talking like this from other girls, well, i think it´s plain wrong.
Hope you feel better tomorrow and understand my comment it´s just my point of view
Hugs
^ hey guess what, anonymous? if you don't like what you see here, then fuck off - move on to a blog that better suits your needs.
ReplyDeletePersonally I don't want zette to ever change, I think she is fucking fabulous just the way she is.
Anonymous, I hope you don't take this the wrong way, but I think "it's plain wrong" that you feel the need to tell anyone what and what not to post on their personal blog. How about you sign up for blogger and say nice shit about chubby girls to help balance out the world?