"Zette where are you?"
"Hey lady we all miss you."
"zette I hope you're ok."
"Please come back soon. I miss you."
"If you're still alive I could use some advice.."
"I'm selfish. I miss you. Sorry you're having such a hard time. You don't deserve that. *Hugs*"
i know, i know. i suck at this. i've just been a zombie lately. i got sleeping pills so i should start feeling better. but lately when i eat i feel sick. so i can either lean over the toilet let whatever happen, or i can shove my fingers down my throat&make whatever happen faster, or i can drink cold water&lie down&try not to worry. i feel like shit lately. i'm always tired. i don't want to go running. i don't want to babysit. i don't want to walk surprise. i don't want to play with spinolio. i don't want to get dressed&put makeup on&i sure as hell don't want to go anywhere. but i've been doing all those things. cause if i don't, they will worry. &if they worry, they will pry. &if they pry, i might open up, &then i'll be screwed. zombie zette is here. not much good for anything. fail fail fail. anyway................well.........i lost my train of thought. see what i mean?
thinspo:
or:
you can try to hide behind your stupid mum but we can still tell you're huge, blondie. stay strong, lovelies.
xoxo
zette
p.s. my sincerest apologies (i don't give them often) for being a shitty follower. i'm trying to catch up. i just got so so so far behind. blah. but i am trying.
Hope things get better soon! Sleep issues suck.
ReplyDeleteSounds like you're a little bit depressed girl. When I get depressed it goes both ways: I either can't sleep at all and am sure I could add insomnia to list of other issues I have. Or, I sleep all bloody day and night and do nothing else. I really do wish you the best of luck. Try to focus on the simple pleasures of life, like flowers and music. Keep us updated on how those sleeping pills work out for you.
ReplyDeleteAll is forgive, sweet girl. No pressure.
Haha, EVERYONE gets my name mixed up too... I'm like, EYE LAH, not IS LAH. xD Hahah. I feel your pain.
ReplyDeleteI agree with Isla when she says no pressure. We can comment away on your blog and give you all the support you need to feel somewhat better and we won't expect a thing in return. Right now you're the one having a hard time, so we'll do what we can for you. You've helped us when we were down :) so dont sweat it.
ReplyDeleteyou'll come out of this funk eventually, better than ever.
Just caught up on all your posts-- I'm really sorry for all the shit that's going on in your life right now.
ReplyDeleteI hope you're managing okay.
I know what you mean.
I don't feel like doing anything either.
Feel better <3