9:30am

good morning, ladies. i'm having my favoritest breakfast: rice chex cereal with vanilla coconut milk: 150 cals. okay, so discussion....how do you add up your calories? for me, i take the ingredients of things (since most of my food is homemade) &add the cals that way. i write down all the exercises i do but i don't write down what i burned. if i purge, i take away 50cals. so my total is simply what i ate. buuuut some of you have your intake&then subtract what you burned in your workout, giving you a smaller total for the day.

i suppose everyone does it different. most of you aren't as mean to yourselves as i am to myself. which you get kudos for. although i've decided that i might like my cheekbones. they're crazy high cause of the native american genes on my mother's side. so that means i like two things about myself. yes, i'm still okay with my left eye. i'm not sure if this post is making sense or not. oh well.

thanks for all the insight about why i might be cold. the calorie thing makes sense. but i'm not willing to fix it so i suppose i should quit complaining about it. another thing i should quit whining about? my feet. they hurt. all the time. but it's only because i take my trusty razorblade&cut them open when i get frustrated. &when i wake up from a nightmare. my nightmares scare me like none other. so i cut, just to get out of my head. it works. don't hate. though sometimes i wish i hadn't started 5 years ago. i'd say how old i was but i don't put my age on here, though i know at least two of you know anyway&the rest of you could prolly guess. i obviously don't share my weight, either. that's my number one rule, just before 'never finish an entire serving of anything' & 'never go back for seconds'. just three rules&lots of guidelines. does anyone else have a never again list? all i have on my list are pie&donuts. i like to give myself realistic guidelines. i'm not sure if i should or not. but i do. so that's that. stubborn little thing, i am. whoa, rambling like none other. sorry. i've just missed posting. anyway, our computer just had spyware&i took it off so now we're good. cheers for that.

thinspo will be different today cause i found pictures of this girl&couldn't stop myself.

pretty self-explanatory. i wish my arms were that small.

i want to be able to wear tiny clothes like that someday. someone get that blonde some sleeves though.

arms from left to right: thin, average, thin, chubby. the mexican man behind them is not included in the comparison but he gets creeper points.

oh, also she is crazy tall. which works for her. cause she's skinny. it doesn't work for me. cause i'm not skinny yet. but i'm getting there. points for trying? maybe. stay strong today, lovelies. lets be the skinniest out of all our friends.

xoxo

zette

p.s. so so so happy to be back. off to comment now. &thanks for the emails, kids.