12:26pm

yes, i'm posting in the PM instead of AM. slept for 12 hours. oops. but i'm awake. which is good, because as a master procrastinator, i have a shitton of packing to do. oh right, the questions.

what is your crunches routine? i do 200 with my legs crossed&held in the air in the morning, same before bed in the evening except it's 250. so 450 a day.

Where do you get all your thinspo? two places. facebook or lookbook. for facebook, i go to a friend's profile&pick a friend of theirs that i don't know. then i creep around their pictures for thinspo&reverse. lookbook is just for thinspo, i click on "new" &scroll down until i've found three ladies who are skinny enough. i try not to use pictures i've seen used before.

What started all of this for you? Is there a story behind it? Also: how long have you been doing it? my mother told me i could stand to lose weight four years ago. so i did. then i'd gain it back. then lose it again. so on&so forth for the past four years. which kind of makes me sad because i see what little progress i've made in that ginormosaurus amount of time.

Do you get sad or happy when people start worrying about your weight? depends on who it is, honestly. if it's one of my close buddies, i get a little sad, because i don't want anyone to worry. but if it's simply someone who is bigger than i am, happy for sure. i try to hide my weight loss though, because it's just for me. i don't like when i get attention for it because it's usually negative, honestly.

Are you really anorexic? i'm gonna say no. because i chose it. people on the outside looking in say that i am. just people in my life, i mean. but it's just a way that i've chosen to lose weight. i needed structure, i found it, &i'm not going to give it up.

what do you think about purging?? i hate that i like it. it's bad bad bad. i know it is. it just gives me an excuse to eat more&not have to suffer the consequences. but it does come in handy when i'm at a family dinner, forced to eat normal portions, &haven't allowed for it that day. but i also forced myself to stop for 2 weeks when i started spitting blood. so if you're thinking of starting, please don't. it's so hard to stop. you're welcome to use laxatives but since the calories are already absorbed it's not the same. if you don't want it in you, don't eat it.

what are you going to do when you can't lose anymore weight? cut off my legs. they must weigh a lot.

Why the hell are you encouraging normal people to be sick like you? none of my followers, that i know of, started losing weight because of me. i know some of them look to me for encouragement (&lets be honest, for comedic relief sometimes) but i don't scout out healthy people&teach them to live the way i do. i don't see anything wrong with encouraging people who hate their bodies to change that. that said, i'm sorry if i ever caused anyone to second-guess their security because of what they read here. this is my blog. it's on the internet. anybody can find it, &anybody can walk away from it.

do you think you are physically healthy? physically, sure. i'm not underweight or anything. when something goes wrong, i correct it. when i get tired&dizzy i grab emergen-c&put it in my water bottle. when blood comes up with my food, i give my throat a break. i know that 600cals a day isn't normal, but i don't want to be normal. but for now yes, my body is, unfortunately, perfectly healthy.

 what would you do if someone forced you to recover? if by recover you mean get fat, that would suck. but nobody can force me to change the way i think. i think i could give this up if i wanted to, but why the bloody hell would i want to?

What am I going to do without you for 17 days? email me.  ilovezette@yahoo.com or text if you're in the U.S.

Are you actually the fattest sister or do you just think you are? well how should i know? i weigh less than my sister who is 3 inches shorter than i am. but i swear she just...looks better. maybe because our legs are the same length so my long torso makes me look bigger? i don't know. they just make me feel like a whale. all 3 of them.

dont you think its sick that girls are trying to fight anorexia and you are clinging to it? i'm not anorexic. but i hope those girls get better, because they want to get better. i don't want the whole world to lose weight. just the people who want to.

what is your favorite zero-calorie drink? the 'sparkling water beverage' at target. they come in different flavors&at 69cents for a 33.8oz bottle, i can afford them. go look for them in the section with the water.

How the crap do you handle all the haters? haters will hate. i answer their questions&if they won't listen to kind logic&keep being rude, i ignore them. i don't have to let anyone bring me down. i don't have that good of a cap on my temper face to face though. C can tell you. i broke his nose when i was 15. i have a bad habit of not apologizing, too. i'm sweet if you're sweet to me though.

How old are you? i'd rather not say. you're welcome to guess though. i just don't like putting my age because when i see someone's age, i automatically think of them a certain way.

What do you weigh, O secretive one? that's a secret. i post my pictures instead of numbers. i hope that's okay.

well i'm glad some of you guys actually asked questions. even though most of you are shy&emailed them in. silly girls. time for thinspo, &since i'll be gone for so long, i decided to add extra for you. i didn't count them&i'm sorry i couldn't find more reverse but i've really got to get ready to go, since we leave early tomorrow morning.

thinspo:

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fatty in the black or skinny in the black? hmm.

not a fan of the fairy dresses but can i have legs that size(on the left of course)? thanks.

 hi blondie. you make your friend look fat. stay strong today, lovelies.

xoxo

zette

p.s. be back in 17 days. email me please while i'm away. about anything. really. sofia&i had a whole conversation about vitamins. ilovezette@yahoo.com