9:32am

good morning. well, for me. goodnight&good afternoon to some i suppose. since some certain peoples asked, i think i have the dates for my colorado trip. if my mother agrees, i'll be gone the december 25th - january 11th. kapeesh? that's over two weeks without posts so i'd love love love it if some of you would email me while i'm gone. i can email, i just don't want the web address to my blog on any other computer. it's not that my sisters would find out about this&try to help me. it's that they would make fun of me. after my oldest sister found out about my cutting she got a kick out of it. my alcoholic sister said something about scars&B said "oh, zette knows alllll about scars, don't you?" &laughed. i wanted to slap her. but i couldn't. so i didn't. but i still wanted to. her picture might be the first up when i get my punching bag (which i don't have the money for..so...yeah).

oh, also, liquid fast is going fine. it's just yesterday&today. i kinda cheated. i had a spoonful of yogurt. but oddly i'm not mad at myself for that. just drinking half a soda when i was out with friends. i purged in the bathroom&i sliced open my pinky finger for it. one of my friends noticed, i think. but she's sweet&quiet&won't say a word, i know. ugh. my thoughts are all over the place. i'm almost done with that kathy reichs book. it's amaaazing.

thinspo:

or:

from the left we have fat, thin, average, average, perfect, average. hm...i'd fit in great with the fat girl. dammit. stay strong today, lovelies.

xoxo

zette

p.s. raise your hand if you never leave the house without your makeup on. *raises own hand*