9:05am

when the first thing i hear in the morning is my mother's voice, it puts me in the shittiest of moods. i'm gonna be a grump today. oh, i'll try to climb out of it. i'll wear my best jeans&t-shirt, my favorite shoes. i'll pat myself on the back for going on the liquid fast with tearsnsorrow today&tomorrow. i didn't mean for that to rhyme. today i'm having black coffee&1/2 cup juice for breakfast. tea&water for the rest of the day. i'll be gone most of the day so i'll have to catch up on emails tomorrow. sorry ladies. i want to spend extra time with a particular friend because i know she's bigger than me but she's losing weight&my mind keeps telling me i look fat compared to her now. i mean, true, i look fat compared to almost everybody, but still. playing mind games with myself is catching up to me. i keep pretzels in my purse though in case i feel dizzy. i need to charge my ipod. glad i remembered. sitting at starbucks with no regina spektor all day would have been lonely. mmm don't you just adore my bad attitude? blah. sorry about the bitching.

thinspo:

or:

they're both blonde so no judgy. on the left, we have a skinny girl. on the right we have her fat friend. i wonder if she knows she's the fat friend? i wonder if my fat friends know they're my fat friends? oh lordy. i'm evil. stay strong today, lovelies.

xoxo

zette

p.s. anyone else avoid cameras at all costs? love to take photographs, hate to be in them. i'm getting a camera for christmas. i'm so fucking excited.