ohhdang. you ladies are pretty great at shooting down anonymous bitches. thanks for that.
i just woke up&i'm frustrated today. i've been avoiding looking at myself. i learned a long time ago to put my makeup on without a mirror, then to check quickly before leaving. i know what my clothes look like. i know that my fat makes all my clothes squeeze me. i know i should just wear my baggy jeans every day. i should go thrift store shopping for bigger sweaters. maybe i can find some at ross. when i see my fingertips tapping keys all i can think is that i have fat fingers. even my wrist bones look big. my arms are flabby beyond belief. my stomach doesn't have that sunken in look today. i shouldn't blame it on all the water i drank. i'm disappointed. when i purged yesterday&the day before all i really got out was spit&blood. since i don't cry anymore, i'll burn as many calories as possible&hope ana chips away at the curvy figure people say i'm 'blessed with'. i hate when people talk about how boys don't like super skinny girls. why the fuck would i keep my body the same way, hating it every day, just so boys will like me? that's pathetic. i'm doing this for me.
thinspo:
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i don't understand fat girls who think they're hot. are they buying all that stuff about confidence being beauty? whatever. stay strong today, lovelies.
xoxo
zette
p.s. anyone else spit blood when you purge?
p.s.s. email me when i go to colorado please: ilovezette@yahoo.com
when do you leave to go to colorado?
ReplyDeletei don't purge anymore, when i did, yes i did once, but i stopped because of it. hope you are alright, despite.
I love your or thinspos, I find them all over facebook now.
ReplyDeleteOne day I want to be one of your skinnies.
xxx
You go, girl! Do it for you because that is what's important. I'd love to email you! :)
ReplyDeleteso great thinspo as usual..
ReplyDeletestay strong,
much love,
xxx
I agree with you and mags. No one else will like you until you actually like yourself, because then you can dress like a slut and not look like a beached whale like the last pic.
ReplyDeleteI don't understand it either. Confidence is only beautiful if you're already attractive on the outside. If you're fat and ugly, it doesn't matter how much you say you like yourself, because until you're actually hot, no one else will lol..
We got your back, gurl =D
Great Thinspo
ReplyDeleteAnd boys so like skinny girls. I cant tell you how many times Ive heard a guy say "shed be pretty if she wasnt chubby" In my school, my guy friends say it all the time. So I call shenanigans on the whole no skinny girl thing
A woman who shapes who she is and what she looks like to please men is called a prostitute.
ReplyDeletePeople swear they can get anyone to look a certain way as long as they dangle that carrot in front of us. Too much make up? Boys like a girl who doesn't wear make up. Too chubby? Boys like girls who are fit. Too athletic? Boys like girls who are more delicate and feminine.
Has it ever occurred to these people that maybe girls have their own personal standards? That *gasp* we make ourselves look the way WE want to look?
How fucking progressive.