home alone. just me&all this food. i moved all my sister's snacks to the kitchen, since i only go in there for water. nothing for dinner. lots of frozen veggies to make if i need to, though. had a tiny truffle earlier. felt bad so i purged&then danced around my room til i started sweating, &it's super cold in my house. goodbye, calories.
i'm watching csi&i'm creeped out. i don't usually get creeped out but lately i'm pretty jumpy. &nightmares are getting worse. &i'm cutting more. but no worries. it'll be okay.
so, still trying to figure out how to fast without people noticing. especially when i used to pig out on junk food with my sister. &she keeps buying ramen by the box. sometimes i wish i could just live alone. just me&my music&a fridge full of water bottles. wouldn't it be great? i think so.
on another note, people are ignoring me lately..? some, not all. i guess i've been meaner than i meant to be. i can be sort of a bitch sometimes. even to myself. which comes in handy when i set my eyes on something like weighing 115. i know i can do it. &i will do it. &i'll finally be beautiful.
xoxo
zette
Urghh yes I totally agree... it's sooo hard to resist food (especially junk food) when it's everywhere in your house, I hate it! It annoys me how family occasions always have to revolve around food :(
ReplyDeleteDon't worry lovely, you can do it! Focus on your goal xx
Hey sweety Thanks for following my blog :)
ReplyDeleteI really love your thinspo pics, the chubby girls at the end really drive the point home!
The cutting will pass, I feel in and out of cutting in the fall semester but I haven't done it in a while. I know how that goes.
Living alone really does help..but when people come over it looks bad if you have nothing too.
You can do it~~starve on.
hey love,
ReplyDeletethanks for the lovely comment<3 every bit of encouragement helps :) and about people ignoring you lately.. that happened to me and it's always getting worse, but i'm so used to it that it doesn't really matter. you realize who your true friends are when they stick to your side even when you're always bitching, you know? haha :) dont worry, i'm constantly bitching at everyone and everything. Stay strong and don't give up !
Love,Ana