8:49pm

fuck!!!!!!!

okay, on to the update. zoo for 4 hours, excluding the train ride there&back. i like taking the train. always interesting people around. mostly hung out with my niece while her parents argued about everything. fighting couples are so annoying. anyhow, ended the day saying hi to V at work&then getting dinner at an asian restaurant. (yes, i ate. no, i didn't keep it down.) anyhow, now i'm home..&happy as can be....not. why am i in tears again? i'm not sure. i've been crying alot lately, which is odd cause i'm not much of a crybaby, at least i try not to be.

i'm so frustrated. i need to lose weight but it keeps sliding down my list of priorities. not personally, but cause my family would totally flip if they found out. so i try to eat in front of them every meal. i don't eat when i'm alone. there's no reason to. but i seem to be getting less alone time lately. boo.

my army buddy was in town today. but i was at the zoo. so i missed him. super lame. i miss him tons, so hopefully i'll get to see him soon.

my nosy friend called to talk a few minutes ago. to apologize. fuck her. i hope she gets run over by a lawn mower.

as for my dramatic friend, she's been cool lately. not surprisingly, cause she's usually pretty cool. she's just sometimes...well, dramatic. going on about how i'm going to kill myself when i know if she were here she'd take it back. then sometimes she knows i'm just talking so she'll me to drop the bullshit&tell her what's actually going on. gotta love real people. except when they never have time to take a call. boo.

golly. i'm all about rambling tonight. thinspo is long overdue, yes?

so, without further ado:

 or:

 

 i don't care how pretty you are; do you really think you'd ever be able to see past the fat? ew.

xoxo

zette