8:17pm

fuck. so thanksgiving made me gain a pound but i've lost 6 since then so i forgave myself. mostly. i feel sick today. had to get up early to babysit for 5 hours. doing it again tomorrow&on thursday. i don't want to. but i need the money. so oh well. the kids are great. the oldest should be at school tomorrow so it's just a 4 year old boy&twin 2year old girls. they're cute&mellow&it should all be good. i'll grab a 5 hour energy to help me through it though. oh, my reason for posting. i thought of you guys because someone sent me a youtube video of "cassie's confession". remember her? from antm? i liked her. mostly i liked that she didn't seem emotional at all. &the plus-size model leaned over&said "girls with eating disorders are hardcore." i don't have an eating disorder. not really. but still. i dunno. anyway, sorry i've been gone. i know, another empty apology. blah.

thinspo:

or:

obviously, we're focusing on the lady in the blue tank top...who may have worn a white bra? yipes. oh well. let's compare her to the girl in the white t-shirt, black shorts, &converse. ohboy. being average is terrible, but being fat is worse. stay strong today, lovelies.

xoxo

zette

p.s. holyfuckilovecandycanes.