9:42am

feeling a bit better. &holly i can sympathize cause my mother came in with halloween candy last night&i binged. about 400cals worth of candy. i purged. my throat hurts today cause it was already sore. orange juice with  emergen-c for breakfast. dropping down to 700 today. tomorrow i'll be back to my usual 600 a day, plus hopefully i'll be able to work out. for today i'll take surprise for a walk. she loves going to the park&i don't take her out there often enough. when i run at night i only go through my neighborhood which is terribly boring. i say this as if i've run recently. i haven't. damn. i'm not the brightest. oh well. you ladies put up with me&that's impressive. in other news, i'm being called out on my potty mouth lately. i don't type it as much as i say it. boy, people in churches hate me. no joke. i cuss like a sailor. i think even more so when i'm easygoing or in a good mood. when i'm pissed i either hit someone or stay quiet so i don't hit someone. in other words, sometimes i let my temper do its thing, sometimes i hold it back. i get my temper from my dad, i think. i haven't talked to him in quite a while. he wasn't allowed to go to my nephew's funeral&that was in april so i saw him sometime before that. i guess now we know that if someone beats the shit out of me&my family, they don't stay in my life. don't you love learning? blah. feeling better physically but i'm grumpy. i'm rambling again, aren't i? i need somebody here to tell me to shut up. on to the important things.

thinspo:

or:

my age. they look young. anyway, the point is that with just faces&shoulders you can imagine what their bodies look like. if you're planning on attending a formal event, make sure there is someone there fatter than you. if you lose weight, this will be easier. stay strong, lovelies.

xoxo

zette

p.s. not sure why the second thinspo girl is in her undies outside but she looks fantastic.