9:58am

made a sandwich for breakfast. was planning on eating half. put the plate crooked on the desk. set the sandwich back down&the plate nearly fell. made me think of what that food will do to my body fat percentage. just tea for me, thanks. had a particularly awful dream last night. the...thing, lucy, that i told you about was in it as usual. but it didn't do anything. just stared. not sure how, it has no eyes, but i knew it was staring at me. &i ran, but my legs were on fire, burning away as i went. i'll leave out the other details. made me wake up feeling sick though. dear brain, please stop conjuring up such images while i am supposed to be resting. guess i can't hope to escape my mind. so i'll distract it with a morning playlist of regina spektor&bob marley. cheers.

checking facebook, everyone hates something today. "i hate mornings." "sometimes i hate my family." "i friggin hate school." "i hate being sick." i'm tempted to make rude comments. i shouldn't. though since i have over 500 friends on facebook (too many. how the fuck do i know so many people?) losing a few wouldn't hurt. but i shouldn't. my niece will be over here soon. i hope she still wants to go to the park. i want to run around&climb&swing with her. in other words, burn calories. wow. at least i'm focused.

my mother just came in my room to give me a speech on getting more stuff done. a speech she should listen to. oh, sure, she works. but why does she insist on homeschooling me if she's just going to give me the books&leave me to it while she plays piano?? fucking idiot.

thinspo:

or:

average vs skinny. it's winter. it's cold. why warm up with hot food when tea is just as filling? remember that today, ladies. &email me if you need a kick in the teeth. or a pep talk. or whatever. stay strong today, lovelies.

xoxo

zette

p.s. anybody else like hula hooping? &do your ribs get sore where it hits them?