8:46am

had an okay day yesterday. had a bite of lamb curry at lunch, then some fruit cause V&i went to a baby shower about dinnertime. it was kind of fun, we cracked wire hanger abortion jokes in the kitchen while all the people who like babies were in the living room.

anyhow, i'm not sure how much i'll be posting. our computer is sicko (virus) so i'm putting my itunes on cd's cause when my brother 'fixes' it, it'll be basically a new computer. boo. already tried removing tons of programs, scanning it&then removing more stuff, using trojan removers&all that. my brother is in school to be an electrical engineer so he answers all our computer questions. smarty pants.

started the day with yelling. my mom woke me up by standing in m doorway&yelling at me to clean up. i dunno if i've said this before, but i really hate being yelled at. hate hate hate it. i can take all that she says if she says it normally, but when she yells..ughh. i've been all bummed out since last night, when i cried about nothing. nothing at all. just cried. for an hour. seriously? i'm not a big cryer lately, but that was a ridiculous sobfest last night. whatever. still have that clingy sad feeling today. oh well.

fasting to make myself feel better. if i slip up, it's 100 pushups added on to the ones i already to every day. they wear me out like crazy. stay strong, ladies. it'll get better.

thinspo weekender-legs:

or:

my thighs don't touch right now, but if they ever do again i'll cut them til they don't. i kid, but i really do hate my legs mucho.

xoxo

zette