funny how it's often the fat people who tell you you're thin&that you don't need to lose weight, etc? well obviously. if i weighed as much as you do i'd be jealous of me too. the exception is my dramatic friend. i love her to death but she is not at all happy about my weight, or the fact that i want to lose so much more. but she just lost a ton of weight. so she knows how good it feels. she's pretty thin now, i think she looks smaller than me. &she has a prettier face. how is that fair? fuck all you blue-eyed beauties. i'll just pretend to be happy with my too-high cheekbones&shit-colored eyes. anyways, dramatic friend has teamed up with nosy friend again. i hope they'll quit it. because my dramatic friend lives on the other side of the country&my nosy friend lives about 20 minutes away. so between the 2 of them, they could fuck up my life majorly. that worries me.
another sleepover tonight. it's my friend's birthday. they always have tons of food. i'm fasting today so anything eaten tonight will blow me up. anyways i'll like a total of 4 people there. i hope that's enough. i can be pretty mean when i don't like someone. i'm not sure why i feel the need to say such awful things to people. the worst is that i find something true&stretch it to make them feel like shit. great for getting back at people but i do it all the time. i know, i'm terrible. i'm nice to you guys though, right? i mean i hope so. i try to be.
in short, i'm scared that 2 of my friends will get me in trouble as they know so many of my secrets, &i'm scared that i'll binge at tonight's sleepover. words of encouragement as always would be greatly appreciated. i'm all for giving back so i'll post thinspo.
some pretty little legs:
or:
chances are she wouldn't look any better with a smile. nice try though, fatass. stay strong, lovelies, &wish me luck. tonight is going to be very...interesting.
xoxo
zette
Omg girl! I feel your frustration! You can do this! Is there anyway you can make it look like you are eating so that your crazy friends will lay off? Like just nibbling here and there, but going back to the food a lot so that it looks like you've been constantly eating.
ReplyDeleteI know its really hard. When I eat one thing I just wanna give in. But you are strong! You can do this, however you decided to handle it. Just keep telling yourself how strong you are...! (And maybe use skinny friend as thinspo not to go crazy tonight.)
good luck tonight, I know it's tough
ReplyDeleteYou can do it lovely, just think sleepovers can carry the excuse "I ate loads earlier" very well :) You're strong, think thin xoxo
ReplyDeleteWell since its a sleepover you can probably get away with I had a big dinner before I came. Keep talking, and be bubbly and chances are they won't notice. You can do it :) xo.
ReplyDeletehow was the last sleepover by the way?
ReplyDeleteDon't worry, you'll get through this one.
I know what you mean ... one can be easily mean when you don#t like someone. On the other hand, you don't always have to play the nice girl, do you?
oooooh gosh. Youre so right. I hate it when girls tell you how skinny you look and it's obvious that they just don#t want to encourage you to lose more weight because THEY want to be the skinny ones!!
you know that's true, best proof are your thinspos with the fattie in the middle.
Girls want you to stop losing weight so they can lose it and be the gorgous skinny ones.
It's what i do, too. I tell girls who are about my weight that they are very skinny and fragile so they don#t lose more weight than I do.
I always grab some chips or a soda. Just put it down somewhere. like a dresser, or table. No one has to actually see you shovel it in your face. Make sure you always have a cup of ice water in your hand, makes you look busy.
ReplyDeleteYou will be fine. Stress is a trigger, so just have fun. If you need to be rude, then go ahead, that can be fun too ;)
xoxo zen