1:54pm

buried my mom's cat. i hate the way death is so clingy. it's like it lingers on my fingertips even after i scrub my arms&toss my clothes in the washing machine. i feel tainted. i feel like i should be drenched in hand sanitizer before i hold my niece. she'll be 4 in july. she's so small&happy&innocent. she's the best tiny friend.

also, i'm sick. tonsils are swollen&i have a headache. we all know my inability to keep food down isn't a symptom of that though. i'm taking all my vitamins&drinking lots of water&juice so i can get better. i'd get better faster if i ate but i don't want to. i don't want to gain.

boo being fat. boo being sick. boo having an economics test to do that i'm just going to fail. boo holding my mom's 13year old kitty til there's no pulse&then setting her in a hole in the back yard. boo monday in general. moody pieces of me aside, i promised i'd post thinspo for you little ladies.

so, thinspo:

or:

i'm in a shitty mood. i'm going back to bed. stay strong today. baby steps, remember? one day at a time. let's be small.

xoxo

zette