my mom is pissed at me about my grades. she keeps telling me i should at least try. i feel too shitty to tell her i'm doing my best. i've barely lost any weight even though i'm working so hard at it. since i've been frustrated i've been avoiding people, so quite a few people are mad at me. then on the way home from the sleepover, i didn't want to go home yet. so C drove down a road so we could talk a bit more. there was a dog out, we kept driving. then we turned around&a guy on a motorcycle had hit the dog. C is medically trained so she stopped to check out the biker&i checked out the dog. it was breathing&still had a pulse but it's mouth was bleeding so i shut its eyelids&waited until it was still. the guy dislocated his shoulder&broke his kneecap (we think). so we held his hand&talked about all the pins on his vest until the ambulance got there. then i came home&cut&burned my ribs so i wouldn't cry. i just got home from taking surprise for a long walk in the park. the weather is nice. sort of ironic to me because my day is a shitfest so far.
fuckfuckfuck. today is stupid.
i'll post thinspo later or tomorrow. i'm taking a sleeping pill&pretending this stuff never happened. then i'm going to party my ass off tonight. oh so responsible. hope your day is going better. is it? stay strong, lovelies. never never never give up.
xoxo
zette
:( keep your head up.
ReplyDeletesorry for the short comment back. too much shit going on.
i'm about 5'5".
sorry.
ReplyDeleteyou sound ... like a dead person.
i remember reading some posts who were full of life but i guess it's normal that this one sounds a bit ... dead.
i hope you feel better now.
thank you for closing the dogs eyes.
not everyone would have thought about that.
x
Sounds rough.
ReplyDeleteI just notived Vitamin String Quartet in your music prefernces...pure love!
In fact, you have good music taste all round.
Just thought I'd mention that.
How dreadful. Leaves a sick feeling in your stomach to witness such a sad event. I hope you are feeling better.
ReplyDeleteAnd big HUGS to your lovely dog surprise. When I couldn't help and injured animal once, I was ever more grateful to have a healthy one at home waiting for me.
xoxo zen