i'm told that i make the whole self injury thing a grey area. so let's make it clear, shall we? instead of crying, i cut or burn. usually on my ribs, sometimes on my legs. it's not that i lack the ability to cry, it's just messy&unnecessary. like cutting. but cutting makes me feel better. at least it usually does. it has for the past 4 years. so..shabam: we're clear.
anyhow, had about 700 calories yesterday. yikes. i just rolled out of bed&i'm not sure what i should have for breakfast. probably part of a smoothie&alot of water. about 200 calories. plus coffee. sounds good to me.
in other news, i really want to go to dallas. just take the train to mockingbird station&wander around. go to james's voodoo shop&have a chat. hang out with a street musician, talk about life, &never see them again. i'll have to convince someone to give me a ride to the train station though.....&of course i'll have to go to the zoo.
thinspo for your thursday:
or you can be nikki:
whatever you're craving right now, chances are it won't makes your legs smaller. ana will. stay strong, lovelies.
xoxo
zette
I don't want to be the one with big legs. I love your thinspo. Hope your doing ok, xo.
ReplyDeletelmao!! so funny. No one wants to be Nikki.
ReplyDeleteNikki should have tried to hide em in those blue pants atleast.
ReplyDeleteah yep, the cutting issue. I hate those posts. posts that are related to cutting.
ReplyDeleteTo be fairly honest: I judge.
and to be even more honest:
I'm not allowed to. Because I was a cutter, too. 3 years ago, I stopped. Finally. After years of doing it.
Since then I've only cut myself 4 or 5 times ... They were "accidents".
Sometimes I still want to do it but I'm strong these days. I've not done it for a year. Fancy that.
But sometimes I really want to.
That's why I hate those posts. I read them and want to shout: Don#t do it.
But I'm not allowed to say it.
At the same time I feel like i'm a bit better off, because my scars have sort of healed, most of them anyway, and they weren't as deep as they could've been. I hate seeing really bad pictures of arms, covered in blood ... it wouldn't even trigger me, never has, never will. weird.
I dunno ... this is actually the first time I've really answered to a post that mentioned the word "cut". Weird :D
ah whatever prevents me from stuffing my face, right?